CHECK IT OUT

this came out in late august but it was written by Renee Yohe and you should definitely check it out. its called Purpose for the Pain.

TWO DAYS OUTTA THE WAY

Day 7: Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

since i known really nothing of zodiac signs other then im a leo i decided to look this one up and this is what i found. the bold is what i think is true of myself....

The Fire sign in these people is enthusiastic, energetic, and optimistic. Representatives of signs are happy, lucky people. Fixed people are stable. They don't like much change. Status quo suits them fine. They will stick to things and get them done.

People born in this period always aim to get above the common herd of humanity, and they themselves in turn are naturally attracted to strong personalities – in fact, they will forgive any fault in the people they like so long as they have individuality and purpose. They are usually generous, kind, and openhearted, they find it hard to believe ill of others. If injured, they strike back quickly [i try not to do this though], but they also forgive easily and never hold a grudge. The bright side of Leo is very bright indeed, "sunny side up" they are very much attuned to the life giving properties of our Sun itself. The typical Leo is flamboyant and generous with tremendous charm and a magnanimous spirit [ive been told i do].

The Sun is the single most important planet, because it represents a LEO's ego and individuality. It shows their ambitions and deepest character traits, where they have the ability to shine.

Such people represent what might be termed the heartforce of humanity. They are overflowing with sympathy [more empathetic then sympathetic], and are generally generous to a fault.

They are usually lucky in money matters, often having money given to them from unthought-of sources; but they crave love above all, and this is the one thing they seldom get.

Such people have the power to inspire others [ive been told this], and as leaders like Napoleon, born in this Sign. They have an ability to lead their men through fire or death.

People who were born in this period usually have an extremely independent spirit; they detest control or being dictated to. They have great tenacity of purpose and will power and if once they put their mind on some plan, purpose or position, they usually reach their goal in spite of every difficulty or obstacle.

Though full of ambition and enthusiasm, Leo has to admit to a lazy streak and, given the opportunity, will take the easy way out, especially when a situation offers little fun or glory. This is something lazy, luxurious Leo needs to watch.

These people are usually very patient and long-suffering, but if once roused, they know no fear and do not even know when they meet defeat, or acknowledge it when they do.

As a rule, people born in this period feel isolated and lonely in life, and if not actively employed in some work or purpose they become melancholy and despondent.

so yeah, thats my sign and what i think is true....

Day 8: A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

i think the time i remember being the most satisfied with myself was whenever im doing what i love with people that i care about and being true and honest to myself and others. working in the theatre and being in charge of painting the sets comes to mind instantly and also whenever im helping on a film project or some type of broadcasting gig. i thrive on doing what i love. even though its stressful i love it. i know that i have people around me who have my back and love doing theatre/film just as much as i do. and when i am true and honest with who i am i feel as if i am living the life i was meant to live. sadly this semester was not one of the most satisfying ever but im hoping that the spring brings something fun, exciting and new.

ME? INTERESTING.....MAYBE.

Day 6: Write 30 interesting things about yourself

i....

1. still play Pokemon on my color gameboy

2. have to cover the top of my hot chocolate with marshmallows

3. go out of my way to step on crunchy leaves and snowballs

4. have never dated before

5. don’t re-paint my nails until most of the black is chipped off [unless for a formal

occasion then I’ll paint them anew]

6. love when half my head is buzzed [it’s so soft]

7. my second and third toe [and fourth on my right foot] are larger then my big toe

8. keep a list of movies ive seen [started it 5 years ago]

9. have seen 746 movies [at least thats how many i remember]

10. have a lip ring

11. will eventually have a series of tattoos that depict the ones i love

12. lived in Switzerland for nearly 3 months

13. hate the words moist and seepage and when you put them together its even worse

14. am a vegetarian and have been for three years this february

15. still act like a kid around christmas time

16. like freckles - i think they are beautiful

17. love going to restaurants and eating at the bar

18. favorite type of film is documentary

19. think humor is sexy

20. am scared of heights and being in the center spot light

21. dont drink water [at least very rarely - last time i drank water was about a week or two ago]

22. love longboarding, its very calming

23. work best when im over-committed/slightly stressed

24. LOVE fonts and looking at/downloading them

25. am a blunt and straightforward person

26. am in charge of painting the sets at my university's theatre and i love mixing colors

27. am intrigued by numbers

28. am a believer in Christ Jesus

29. hate when hoods are inside out [i often fix them even for strangers]

30. hope to one day be half as cool as my parents

SORROW

Day 5: A time you thought about ending your own life.

i dont really know how to start this one. i have never heavily considered suicide, ever. even when i was sad or had my moments of depression i never even thought about that option. too many people i love and too many things i wanna do with life. i have thought about death. i think every healthy person should look at that part of life and not dismiss it as if it doesnt matter or wont happen for a long time. death is there and real and could hit you today, tomorrow, in a year or in 50. we dont know. i have experienced close friends who have tried the deed but thankfully didnt succeed. i hold on to the feelings that i felt when i found out about their attempts. i was devastated, hurt, horrified and actually finding out about it put me into a state of confusion and desperation almost. to know that one of your closest friends didnt want to live anymore is more powerful than any could imagine. i dont ever want to put anyone through that same emotional state that i was in.

life is too beautiful not to live.

RELIGION OR FAITH

Day 4: Your view on religion

i dont really like the word religion. it always brings with it bad connotations and immediately has biases attached. i think there is a difference between religion and faith. religion is i think is more the "rules" or requirements [the establishment] while faith is actually living out what you believe. i dont know, im not a philosophical person. i just know what i believe and i try to live my life by that.

DRUGS AND ALCOHOL

Day 3: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

on drugs. i dont see the point of cooking your brain for a bit of relaxation or crazy hallucinations. ive experienced hallucinations without the drugs and its not fun. i would prefer to keep my mind in tact thank you very much.

on alcohol. i dont see the issue with drinking a glass or two of wine with dinner or a beer every now and then during social events. but when it gets to the point of drinking just to get drunk thats just stupid. i want to remember what i do. ive seen too many close friends get into situations and make dumb mistakes because of alcohol and i refuse to even put myself in a place that has excessive drinking. i have learned from others and im even iffy about having a glass of wine for my 21st bday [not that i might get drunk from it but that it could possibly start a habit]. ive tasted both wine and beer and dont really like it. i would prefer milk, diet coke or coffee anyways =]

DAY NUMBER TWO

Day 2: Where you'd like to be in 10 years.

i was looking through my photos [i didnt take the picture below] trying to find a picture that would accurately depict where i want to be in 10 years but the thing is is that what i want maybe wont happen. i would like to have a husband and maybe have an adopted kid, working on a film or documentary traveling the world, have no regrets, and so on. but we arent even guaranteed tomorrow let alone the next 10 years. so for my answer im gonna say i just want to be happy. no matter where i am or whom im with, in any and all circumstances i just want to be happy and find the joy in life and the small things. i could be in a hospital bed and all i would want is to be smiling and laughing with someone i love.