i was gonna write a one sentence entry about how deliberate copycats who do what other people do just because its cool or "hip" are my biggest pet peeves [because this is basically the opposite of who i am/believe in/stand for and it seems as if i am now the center point of someone's copycat ways] but then i read a friends blog post and now for some reason i feel hopeless. of course this was not his intentions. probably didnt even know i was gonna read it. but i did.
i am in the right area of life? will i make it in the world as an aspiring film editor/cinematographer/art director/whatever part of film i end up being? can i be someone who sticks out in the crowd, who is exceptional at my work enough so i can get jobs and pay the bills? am i confident enough to survive? who knows. i just hope that in the next year and a half i can figure it all out, or at least most of it.