SORROW

Day 5: A time you thought about ending your own life.

i dont really know how to start this one. i have never heavily considered suicide, ever. even when i was sad or had my moments of depression i never even thought about that option. too many people i love and too many things i wanna do with life. i have thought about death. i think every healthy person should look at that part of life and not dismiss it as if it doesnt matter or wont happen for a long time. death is there and real and could hit you today, tomorrow, in a year or in 50. we dont know. i have experienced close friends who have tried the deed but thankfully didnt succeed. i hold on to the feelings that i felt when i found out about their attempts. i was devastated, hurt, horrified and actually finding out about it put me into a state of confusion and desperation almost. to know that one of your closest friends didnt want to live anymore is more powerful than any could imagine. i dont ever want to put anyone through that same emotional state that i was in.

life is too beautiful not to live.