*dont worry this is not a pity party yadda yadda.
these are just thoughts from my scattered brain and confused heart.*
a friend of mine made a comment a few weeks ago while we were talking about the topic and it struck a chord in me. i honestly dont even remember the comment but it got me thinking and then i guess the words dont matter really then.
anyways - maybe its cause i am scared of letting someone know me more then i let the normal person or a close friend of mine know. and then the other fact is it would obviously be a dude - not a confident area in my life haha! ive never really been fully comfortable around guys except one but thats another story i dont feel like explaining. even guy friends of mine ive always been a bit uneasy. dont ask me why - i dont even know myself.
well im off to bed - i just needed to get these few thoughts down.